California, I miss you so much! there’s not a day goes by that I don’t think about you to think what could have been. You made me feel alive free. Now all I do is feel like I’m missing something….I wish I didn’t feel this way, I wish I didn’t think about you I wish I could sleep through the night without you. I fall asleep thinking of you and wake in a sweat I the middle of the night with your image in my mind. When will I be free of you? When will I not remember you? When will I not want you again?
My fear is that this my love for you will never go away and I fear for the day it does, for I will be left without.